Well.

This has been a dark and crazy year. I have lost people. I have gained people. Things went from bad to worse, while also wierdly getting better at the same time. My job is going well. I now have an income that sustains me. Covid in my state has increased sharply, enough our governer has closed down the state again for at least 2 weeks. As a person in the at risk catergory, this is kind of scary.

Amidst this scary time, I sat back an evaluated my life and where I am. Who am I? Where have I come from? Do I like who I am? When I am on my deathbed (whether it be next month, next year, 10 years from now or 30 years from now), will I be able to feel satisfied. Or will I feel regret.

I came to the conclusion I want to be able to look back and see 3 things. I did more good than harm. I loved more than I hated. And I broke away from my fear and did what made me joyful.

I realized I really do love stop motion animation. A lot. It makes me happy while I am struggling to mold it to what I want. It makes me laugh when I watch a clip back and see my little jokes in action. Even if I am the only one who thinks they are funny, it tickles me to death. I wrote and animated the damn thing, and I still laugh when I watch the Dalek one and see him put the sign on the Daleks back. :D Honestly, it also warms my heart to remember showing that at the 50 year Doctor Who do here in Portland, and listening to the ENTIRE AUDIENCE laugh spontaneously where I do. And later in the day, hearing a kid walking past with a presumed parent retelling the story of the Dalek knocking over Stonehenge in my video, having issues because they were laughing so hard they couldn't finish a sentance. I want others to enjoy what I do too. Not think it is good, or give me accolades....just...enjoy it for what it is.

Of course, I want to be better. I want to learn more. I am now in a financial place where I can up my game technically. So as an addition to that, I applied for the Stop Motion 1 program put on by Aardman, the people who do Wallace and Grommet, etc. I have always wanted to do a program with them, but they were all on prem in Bristol UK, which along with the tuition fees and time required to be in the country, has always put it out of reach for me. I don't even have a passport. But one good thing this horrid pandemic has done is brought that program online, and the class fees lower to a point I can afford it.

I got an email yesterday that they have accepted me. Now, I don't know if this means they are taking everyone, or if they looked at my YouTubes and video pages and decided I desperately need the help. Or if they see potential. And I felt something I did not expect. After the elation, I immediately started in to trepidation. My brain first said they aren't really serious about teaching people, they are just trying to get money and will take everyone who will pay money. As a consequence you will get no instruction, or if you have issues instead of getting help you will be chastised for not being able to figure it out yourself. Yup...I went to college for IT training with a bunch of guys, some teachers, who didn't feel I belonged there. I talked myself out of that, then immediately my brain fell back on the good old "you aren't really good enough. Why are you going to put yourself out there, and putting yourself in debt to do it?"

I am still calming my brain down from that one. But seriously.....All the reasons I outlined earlier in this post.....

Life is too short to hide from what brings you joy.

Not everything you expend money on needs to bring a financial return.

Once more for the people in the back

Not everything you expend money on needs to bring a financial return.


If I do actually get better, get some good pointers, etc GREAT. It will help me do better, express my weirdness better, help entertain people better. And bring me even more joy.

But even if I don't....I can go to my grave (whenever that is) knowing I pursued what made me happy. I am helping people I know with bills. I am buying from small businesses to help them keep afloat during this hard time. I am paying for online comedy shows and concerts, even if I can't make them, to help those who need it. I am contributing to go fund me's. I am throwing bits at Twitch streamers. I am complimenting people genuinely every chance I get.

And I am pursuing my happiness.

End of story.

That seems to be my Modus operandi. Sigh.


Ah well. I started  a new job, which has taken a lot of my time, and dealing with doggo. A couple of weeks ago he was attacked by another neighborhood dog. :/ I don't have a yard so I have to walk him in order to get him exercise and provide him the room to poop. The neighborhood dog was on a leash, but no one was holding it. Froggy had his butt planted on the sidewalk, cause I told him no and he HATES it when I tell him no. The other dog came up to him, sniffed his nose, then chomped his face and tried dragging him away. It only ended when I kicked the other doggo in the chest which made him let go and run away. I was glad I had on my steel toed construction boots. Froggy was not even really fighting back, just trying to get out of the bite. He had punctures in his face, and they scratched his remaining eye. I was sooo piassed off. There is a reason you keep your dog on a leash and in control, even if they are "a good dog" who will listen. Cause they don't always, and when something like this happens is not the time to find out when they will decide to ignore you. Fortunately he is ok, though he has scars on his snout now. And I am nervous to take him anywhere.

I have 4 things I have been working on. The first thing is armor for mr doggo. I decided he needed an helmet and armor set. I decided on 2......a Corinthian helmet with lorica Squamata armor to strap to his back, with a little tshirt underneath. Next is a Norman helmet and norse tunic. This is as far as I have gotten on that one.....

Next is little disks to put in the valves in my mask. I love the look, but those valves on the sides allow droplet to get out, which defeats the purpose of wearing a mask. So I glued down the rubber piece that was the functioning part of the valve, and made several plastic disks I can change out at will. I need to concentrate my decorations further out to the edges of the disks. Otherwise I love how they are turning out.

Next....I have always been a sucker for pretty pens. I saw a glass dip pen online, and decided I had to play around with one. So I got 5. :/ Yeah. I am worse than my mother sometimes. At least they averaged $2 each. The ink that came with them are crap, so I went to Blicks and got some good quality color calligraphy inks. I LOVE THEM SOOOO MUCH! So smooth. The green one had a chip in the tip. Which makes me sad. When I use the unchipped edge it is the best one. I am looking for someone in the area who does lampwork glass who might be able to help me fix it.

Also...have I mentioned I have a problem? I....am...a musical instrument whore. I want them all. I want to learn how to play all the instruments. I gave in last week and ordered this lyre. It is a 16 string, modeled loosely off greek and middle eastern lyres. It is in G modal, which means it goes from G as the lowest note to A as the highest note string, with no sharps or flats in the bunch. It sounds divine! Now that the strings are fully stretched and I have prcticed a bit, I can play 4 songs so far. Searching for Lambs, Usheg Veg Ruy, Fear A Bhata and Ma Navu. It is sooo fun...and addicting....and I can handle it even when my joints are not cooperating. It took me a while to wrap my head around how it works. You anchor and steady it with your left hand, and play the melody and chords with the right hand simultaneously. Hard, but fun. Eventually I will get better at it....I hope.

So there ya go. I am so scattered. I have project ADD, I swear. I still haven't gotten all my sewing projects done. I have apparently moved on, though I will eventually go back to them all.

I will leave you with one of my favorite pics I have taken lately. Last week when I got to work, there was a litte tree frog hanging out top of the card reader. Such a cutie!

Hope your quarentine is going better than you imagined.

So amidst the covid19 novel coronavirus close down scare, we have mid March snow. 😟 Here in Portland we generally don’t get snow, much less in mid March. I decided to take a walk out in it and do some photogging. After going through the 150 pics I got, there are about 40ish I am going to post and edit. Despite being dang cold out there, it is pretty. My kitteh was meowing desperately to go outside. Here is an excerpt from my personal FB:

It is still coming down out there. Da kitteh was at the door meowing hard, then winding herself around my ankles and going back to the door. She thought she wanted to go outside. So I threw on some shoes and a sweater, picked her up and took her outside. Everytime snow landed ln her head she shook her ears. I let her put her front paws in the snow… More on the patio table. Her nose was twitching so hard. I then let her sniff the snow on the fence railing. She stopped struggling to get away and kind of snuggled in to me. When I brought her back inside, she ran away from the door, stopped, looked at it, then sauntered over to the sofa and curled up. She does not want to go outside any more. 🙂

I wish I got pics of her in the snow.

​Anyway, until I have the energy to edit them, here are 2 that are my favorite out of the bunch.

Hello again. I am back again with more resolve to post here more often. Life has been kicking my butt. However I have renewed motivation and plan to try to keep this thing going. In order for that to happen, I have made a plan. Bwuahahaha.
So...

Plan 1 - Post here 2x a week, no matter where I am at.
I am hoping by making myself stick to a pre planned schedule, things won’t fall through the cracks. I have several SCA events to get ready for this summer, as well as Norwescon in April (if it isn’t cancelled) and Rose City Comic Con in September. I also have some stop mo’s I want to complete. They are all written, I just have to construct the puppets, sets, props etc and film. Hwat I work on will be dependent on time, energy, joint flare ups and money for the pieces I need.

Plan 2 - Post a vlog on You Tube either once a week or every other week.
I set up a YouTube channel for bloggy things that are not actual stop mo things. I will embed the videos here. We shall see how that goes.

For now, let me get you caught up.

I have so many projects. I think I will just list them here and break them down into the different parts.

1. SCA
I am going to just concentrate on getting a set of camping event garbs to wear to events this summer. This is going to consist of
-Elizabethan peasant garb
-1 or 2 chemises
-2 or 3 kirtles
​-an apron
-2 or 3 coifs with forehead kercheifs
-a tie on collared partlet
- Possibly either a flat cap, straw hat or both

Elizabethan peasant garb seems fairly straight forward. I am basing my basic design on this:

Basically the blue one. I don’t want to mess with back lacing while camping alone. This is also slightly earlier than my period, but it is the basic jist of what I am going for. I also want to make fake padded braids to wear under the coif to make it fit right. Cause my hair is sparce at the moment.


2. Cosplays
I want to get Talleg done (yes, STILL), and I need to fix Aoifa. I am thinking of just leaving it at those. Because I don’t have a lot of spare money right now, and Norwescon is in a month, I am just going to concentrate and those two for now.

Aoifa
-Fix her corset. Either try to make it a real corset or figure out how to sew the cardboard together so it won’t pop
-Remake her horns
-Make a padded circlet to go under the wig, so the horns look like they are growing kut of her head. Seriously that circlet is a joke.
-Figure out how to incorporate the dragon eye from the current circlet
-Sew the fur collar to the cloak. It is currently hot glued, very badly
-Repaint the spider broaches so the black doesn’t chip off
-Figure out a better sleeve configuration. Or learn how to glue them to my skin so they stay
-Figure out how to install the ears, and how to makeup them

Not much. 😒

Talleg
-Finish breastplate
-leg armor and arm armor
-Gauntlets
-Finish +1 mace.....MAKE IT LIGHT UP

​I think I will break this down futher in my video. When I get that done.

it has been a while...again. Time to pic dump the latest. I don’t have much to add tonight. I need to do some organization, then I will to an actual update update...Da cabs, a crossbow, and da pots.

​Pic dump!

Hallooo. I don’t have a lot to say today. I am kind of in the blahs right now. Not a big holiday fan, and we are in the middle of them.

I do some pot deocrating. No more bubbles, thank goodness. Then one day I learned about nail stamping plates. You know what those are? They are etched metal or acrylic plates with designs on them made for staping in nail polish onto your nails. As I was painting my pots with nail polish, I thought I would give them a go. They are everywhere, and they are cheapy cheap. I had a ton of fun. I am still learning how to place correctly. Pic dump, as usual, at the end.

Then I started thinking. I wonder how well this would work with glass cabashons. Hmmm....Well, I am sort of happy with how some of them turnedout.

And now I have to get back to work, so I am going to pic dump and leave it here.
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It has been yet another month. Dang I am bad at posting. I have been kind of busy. They put me back on days at work. I kind of preferred the night shift. A couple of weekends ago I rented a car and went down to Albany for an SCA event. I attempted to make a coat for it. Mainly went ok....except near the end I got impatient. The last front panel ended up getting sewn in wrong. I have no fricken clue how it happened. It is a good 3 inches too short for the side panel it is sewn to. I think I probably stretched it funny while I was sewing.

I found a new pattern for dice bags that I decided to try. A friend of mine who is a DM and writes D&D adventures needed a new one and was going to buy a Crown Royal bag. Yeah just buy the bag. Wierd. So I mentioned how easy it is to sew one and offered to do it. I decided I was tired of my usual pattern so went perusing for one that might be easier. I found one I liked. Well, I love it. I need to modify it a bit. It leaves raw edges, which is bad if you are using fabric that is easily unraveled. I will include my results in the pic dump at the end.

Today I got a bug up my butt and decided to try to finish some of the mini pottery I have made. It has been long enough it should all be dry enough. I am considering investing in a small tabletop kiln. Looks like they are anywhere from $150-$$1000. I decided I wanted them to look glazed, so I thought I would try using the nail polishes I generally use for dragon eyes, and add a top coat to make it more durable. The results were....mixed. And I broke a couple of them while trying to paint them. One turned out great, with the huge exception of the bubbles that formed. And are still forming, apparently. I really don’t understand why yet. It is interesting. I will include it all in my pic dump at the end. I think maybe that one was overworked? It is regular clay that is meant to be fired, and I did not. But I dont think that would matter? I dunno. Some turned out great though. And I was just sitting here reading about my friend who is using nail stamps, and it just occured to me that I could use those nail stamps to make fancy designs on the mini pottery. I can’t wait till next payday now, somI can get some and try it out.

Ok...it is dinner time so I will pic dump and run....

I went to Blicks, a local art supply store, and got some air dry clay to play around with. I suck.....big time....but it is so fun and so zen. I may eventually get to a point where I have something useable. I have never actually done pottery before. I have watched many people do it. I have read books. Once I ordered this wheel I watch a bajillion YouTube videos of people doing it. Amazingly enough that is not the same as doing it. :P That is fine. I will continue to try. Eventually I will get it.

About a week after this one showed up, a second wheel showed up. When I was ordering my wheel, the first one I ordered ended up coming from China, and listed the shipping as 2 months out. So I cancelled that one and got the other one. Then while I was playing with the other one, the first one I ordered showed up. Even though I canceled that order. THey already gave me my money back. So I guess I have 2 mini wheels now.

​Ok...so now pic dump of wheels and attempts.