So, I was good on my word and got the whole video shot this morning. I settled in with my chocolate, Melba toast, cream cheese veggies and Pepsi to edit. That is when I discovered that my iPad doesn't like to take 10,000 pictures at once. They are all there but they are not in order, and as I cannot see the numbers I have no idea which ones go where. Except the first 20 seconds, as they involve a tv flashing and that is obvious even when looking at thumbnails. I was ready to throw my iPad out the window, so I decided it was a better idea to walk away for a bit and take a short nap. Which ended up being 4 hours long. My theory is that my last few weeks have been so frustrating that my brain couldn't take any more frustration and shut down for a reboot.
The last hour I have been playing around on the interwebs, checking my work email, checking my work servers, double checking that all users are functioning, checking the logs, and downloading podcasts. I am good at productive procrastination. I have been perfecting it for years. I am still procrastinating polishing my stories for next week. That has been happening at 2am, when I can't sleep but too tired to actually write down what is in my brain. Some day soon I need to actually write down what I remember and see if it makes more sense than what I already have.
Anyway, now I need to motivate myself to get back to the video. It isn't that I don't want to do it now. It is more I don't want to deal with frustration any more. I am making myself because I need to practice pushing myself to do things when I don't feel like it - especially when it comes to my creative shit. I will never get anything accomplished if I don't make myself finish. One of the purposes of this blog is to help me motivate myself to complete projects. Seeing it written, and knowing people are reading and expecting a follow up or a finished product, has been helping me to continue when I am ready to say "fuck it" and move on to the next shiney project. I am actually proud of myself for not completely dumping this project for the guitar-to-uke project this weekend. It would have been so easy. Then I might have had 2 more unfinished projects to add to the heap.
OK, now that I have talked myself through the slump, I should start working on it again before I lose my motivation and start searching the interwebs for animal photobombs. I can't resist those silly animal photobombs.
The last hour I have been playing around on the interwebs, checking my work email, checking my work servers, double checking that all users are functioning, checking the logs, and downloading podcasts. I am good at productive procrastination. I have been perfecting it for years. I am still procrastinating polishing my stories for next week. That has been happening at 2am, when I can't sleep but too tired to actually write down what is in my brain. Some day soon I need to actually write down what I remember and see if it makes more sense than what I already have.
Anyway, now I need to motivate myself to get back to the video. It isn't that I don't want to do it now. It is more I don't want to deal with frustration any more. I am making myself because I need to practice pushing myself to do things when I don't feel like it - especially when it comes to my creative shit. I will never get anything accomplished if I don't make myself finish. One of the purposes of this blog is to help me motivate myself to complete projects. Seeing it written, and knowing people are reading and expecting a follow up or a finished product, has been helping me to continue when I am ready to say "fuck it" and move on to the next shiney project. I am actually proud of myself for not completely dumping this project for the guitar-to-uke project this weekend. It would have been so easy. Then I might have had 2 more unfinished projects to add to the heap.
OK, now that I have talked myself through the slump, I should start working on it again before I lose my motivation and start searching the interwebs for animal photobombs. I can't resist those silly animal photobombs.
*This is from the Animal Photobombs tumblr.
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